Thanx 4 the comment bro.

Somehow another i just feel so stuck at certain thing, whether should i move forward or just remain as it is. I question myself, i know it is stupid to say this, cause i waiting for the other side to move forward den i will, some pple will say (get a life man, its your life, y do u have to be like tat), well others may ask ( u sure u wanna do taT? watever make u happy man, i will be there for u). Negative n positive thought keep appearing in my mind. It gonna be 3 month, did i move on? i dunnoe, m i happy with thing tat i m having now? (Yes n no, i dunnoe, i just wan ans, i dun wan question after question or even worst, no reply nor dunnoe wat to say or even coldness.) Can i live without it? Can i just simply ignore it den the end of the day regret for not doing thing tat i always wanted to do or say? Should we be back again? thing will be diff, thing may change, thing may even be better den b4, it maybe worst also. We r so unsure of the ans, maybe it just us tat is afraid to make the move ba. Conversation seem shorter in sms but not in real life, is it so much diff? Have u change or have i change? haiz,maybe i m thinking too much, i m so contradicting. maybe i still cannot get over it, cause i still dun believe it. Maybe i just need a wall to talk to when i m down ba. nitez.
Move on??? -.-!

The call!

Was talking to a frenz of my today, i feel kind of bad letting him know thing n end up having him to had bad day. sry dude. We share our problem n nv come out with any solution at all. ha! He suddenly come n ask me this question (r u still holding on? u can tahan huh?) which kept me thinking n i dun really no3 how to ans him, but i guess he feel wat i felt 2. I dunnoe why, but somehow another i feel hurt when i see his blog n the link, i felt the OUCH in me which strike me to relate to someone. ARH! today he seem moody now it seem tat i m moody 2.lolx certain thing just flashblack, zzzz, somehow i wish i could hear stuff rather den kept in suspend. At time it seem so nice, at time it seem so cold, at time when u wan some 1 to be there but u r afraid to ask, afraid to get rejected, afraid to do it cause u no3 u only stand a small percentage of having it rather den a YES. But u no3 at the end of the day, it will be just a temporary thing. It being quite awhile, i stopped at time n ask myself thing i really wan for my own future, the more think the more i feel it seem so hard, do i wan a simple lifestyle? or a diff kind. But when this question strike me, it somehow link me to her, maybe it cause we always shop at furniture n planned stuff tat we wish to have, well most of the thing is she plan de, ha! cause i quite like the style 2. Somehow another i just feel tat i m lost again. dunnoe y this feeling flew back to me. Is it because i m an emotional person? or is it i simply cannot forget thing? i dun wish to leave thing unsettle nor leave it unsaid, well maybe it is best not to speak anything at all, cause u nv no3 wat u say might hear the other party. I think i always do tat, pple around me always seem to get hurt by wat i say. ops sry. My other side of bro will ask me, nv post your emo bloG? lolx.. I guess blog r for pple to express their feeling be it a happy or sad one.

Sometime i dun even wish to bother about it, i just wanna avoid thing, but i dun seem to be like a person tat will avoid thing n just leave it unsaid, although i trying to do tat, it just feel weird man. Diff pple got diff way of expressing themselves, some keep it slience while others just a fuss out of it.

(It is unfair? have u ask yourself this question? do u feel better of this way? or maybe it just best to leave it n dun bother about it. Or even.......................................) i dunnoe, tat wat i always heard from guys which include myself..

No offences! I maybe wrong.

After hearing much story about my frenz relationship, whether they r together or they broke up (including myself), i came to realise certain thing which kept me thinking n thinking. Girl n Guy have diff mind set of thinking for relationship, there seem to be a gap between us ( for our age).

The Guy Part!!!
Guys, we will always think tat wat they doing is right, we always tell the other how much effort we make, how hard we try to maintain this relationship where the other party just simply ignore u or throw temper at u, how we control their temper, how we always got scold for no reason or even how we try to make them happy but end up they r not at all. How much we love them ( n our head will start thinking whether the girls actually love us not), we always will think it is worth it for doing all this? N getting back this kind of treatment or no reaction at all. Question n question start to pop up no where when problem arrive, we will feel tat maybe she is asking for too much, maybe she dun love me at all, maybe i m not good enough for her ( but i did my best), maybe she have other pple in mind or is she taking thing for granted? Den we will start questioning ourselves, r all the girls like tat nowaday, wat can we do?
To be honest, this is only how we feel, we nv tot of putting ourselves in their shoes to think at time, we always assume thing n nv question them ( even if we question, some will not speak up). We always blame the other party n hardy look into our own fault, we always feel we done our best ( but come to think about it, is it everytime? or is it just a few time). When the girl break up with the guys, the guys will be the 1 crawling back asking for another chance n start to say sweet thing, ( most of the time tat does not help), we always say we will learn from our mistake when thing happen ( but only a few will do tat).

The Girl Part!!!
Girls, they will feel tat watever the guy is doing may not be thing they wan. Girl will keep almost everything to themselves n they will not share with their partner.But why do girls keep almost everything to themselves even though there’s no such thing as secret between each other in a relationship? Have you guys actually thought of that? It’s not about the trust issue here. It’s just that girls care too much about how will you guys feel upon hearing. Will he think that I don’t love him anymore? Will he think that I’m too much? Will he this will he that… blah blah blah… then in the end, girls ended up with this conclusion: some things are better off left unsaid. So things just keep bottling up in their hearts, day by day, when they finally couldn’t take it anymore, it always just ended up with a break up and not a discussion. And why? Because there are just too many things to say, that they don’t even feel like talking about it. Because once they bombard everything to the guys, the guys will just feel that she is just being unreasonable, she is just trying to find some excuses to break off.. blah blah this and that. Some times girls just want the simplest things that guys often neglect it. Girls will often look at the little things that you did for them. Like, for example, did the guy help you to order your food. Is he late for our date? (girls will be happier if you are early, just to wait for them. Can be easily noticed. They will always smile happily when they see you waiting for them earlier than the meeting time). When you praise them. sayang them. telling them about your day (I think most guys will like the look on their face when you tell her about your day. Where they will laugh with you, or share the troubles you faced with you). Girls do crawl back after break up, but most don’t. Because most will feel that, if you do love me, you wouldn’t have initial the break up. If it’s the girl that initial the break up, it will be, if you really love me, you’ll look for me. Ha? Girl just need to know 1 guy to understand the rest of the guys, but a guy may know every girl but can't even understand 1 of them.

So what the conclusion? U gotta figure out yourself, this is just my comment. =)

Its Bothering ME!

To this frenz of my, I maybe wrong in wat i m typing now. I dunnoe wats wrong n wat when wrong, y do u have to show me this kind of attp? Something seem to be cock up this afternoon which i dun even no3 anything, maybe it is because i nv help much or maybe i m being too playful ba. Sry. To be honest with u, if u think i disclose any secret or any info about stuff tat we did talk, wat i can tell u is tat i nv say or speak to pple anything when they ask me stuff. I got no idea why do i always getting into this kind of cold attitude, if there is a lost of trust in me, i m sry, but wat i can tell is tat, i trusted u n will be there 4 u if u need help.

U! =)

For my this young bro who is somehow another in the same shoes as i m, but it just tat my is still ( hanging? I dunnoe!). Well, wat i can tell u is Move on dude, i no3 it is easy to say n hard to do it. but u really have 2, cause at the end of the day, I m sry to say this ( u r the 1 getting hurt more den any1). Certain thing r within our limit, we can only just see n look at things only. Ns is coming, there will be a barrier between each other, wat i can say is only time can tell ba. Aiya actually got thing to say 1 but forgot le..lolx.. Anyway Tc, anything u can call me ba.. i dunnoe wat colour u like, so i just put this ba..lolx