Damn~~

I

Miss

U

MY~~

>.<

it a long break man

Shiok.. it was a good week, where there is just no work n slack is the only word we can use.. hahaha.. dun feel like working le. just wanna rest man.. but no choice life goes on have to get back to work tml. >.<

It was a long weekend for us man, suppose to meet her on friday but end up she is not free n i went out with my frenz. gd bye xinle, raynor must be kind of SAD tat she flew to TW.. lolx.. i seriously wonder did she lie or she just making up story so tat i will not get affected by it, she told me she is meeting a female, but at up i saw her at cine lersure with a grp of guys frenz. savvy? who to believe? ha. anyway did manage to pass her the stuff which i bought. lucky it was b4 her flight, well i believe if she believe in it, it will help her. kekekeke. Bolt was a damn nice show man, ha, damn cute man the DOG, hamster n CAT. haha..

SAT~~~ oh man, simply doing nothing man, it being a long time since i last met pat.. got 1 year plus since we last slack at the house watching Mi3? lolx. dun get the wrong idea, my pat is patrick. one smart ass but is a pamper bitch man. haha. spent the whole sat with him man, it being ages since i last went to parkway manm we settle down with a BK plus coffee beam. ha. we reason got a lot of crap n story to talk man. ha. The weather was gd for slacking n not doing anything. suppose to drink but we end up nv.ha

Ytd was Hui ting bday, went to BB to celebrate for her. well i guess she dun no3 tat i m MY broke up already n she told her parent tat actually i m still MY bf.. ha basically everybody over there was thinking the same 2, but we r not. everybody around me keep asking me is she my gf? i just have to keep saying NO NO NO we broke up. then they will tell me, hey buddy u 2 look damn close together u sure u not tgt? wat happen to u guys? any chance of patching up? seriously i have no idea of it, neither do i have the ans for it. dun ask mi this kind of thing, really. i wonder how many time i have ans. after the dinner we end up at geographer. some thai pub. lolx. end up looking at pple get drank n ensuring the rest r okie.. with my half deaf ear. it kind of sucky man.. ha

GIRL. i really wonder wat r u thinking n doing? i m actually kind of worried for u man. ytd seening u like tat, i have nothing much to say but saw u inside the cab so cold, u r like a child. all i can do is just rub your small pum, n trying to keep u warm. i m curious to ask u lots of stuff but silent is wat u gonna give me. should i really bother about u? i dunnoe man. it just something inside me tat keep me goin, i really wonder wat is tat. but i guess i see thru it on friday, where i feel tat u r lying about meeting your "girl"frenz. thanx for making me believe it. Anyway just take care of yourself man, u wanna have fun go ahead. if tat the way u wan thing to be.. well, i believe u will start to slowly think about the sms i sent u.... tc denz......... i just feel there is someone out there for ya, if not u will not be so secreative.

Work work

shag man.. everyday just so bz, dun even have the time to think of wat to do or plan for weekend.. haiz.. sad.. being wondering around for quiet a long time, felt it was stupid to do thing tat has i can dun do, just wanna take a break man. pOhooo~~

wat can i do or wat should i do nxt time? hmmmm study? feel like but can i get in? i not sure man. frenz around me r planning to further study but i m still lost in the ocean~~

was thinking wat went wrong or it is a good thing tat both of us broke up. i really have no time in weekdays neither is she on weekend. well thing r pretty much diff compare to last time, there is no longer i wait for u or u wait for me, all seem to be by itself. the future that we seem to pursue is no longer there, both hv diff mind set n goals. i won't say tat life without her is not as colourful as b4, but somehow another it seem much quiet. too used to some1 around me complaining about work, herself etc etc etc. lolx. well life goes on, she like wat she is doing now n is happy with it, so i guess it best not to bother so much as b4. When i know she is sick or injury, somehow another i would wish to just take care of her for that moment, after which i will just leave, someone else will take care of her, i just feel so. ha. i question n ask myself thing which i could not ans, it is better this way? after working n building this r/s for so long, it just ended up with a word tat break the chain. it is worth it? i tot thing r goin smooth n it would go on n on. so how another i knew this will happen when i make the decision, we cannot be so selfish in life, many of us would wanna do thing which they may not be able to do so in the future, so y not just support them? i deeply appreciated the thing tat she supported me, mentally n emotionally, to who i m now. i m sorry to say this, but i hope she really go n think of wat she wan n wake up her idea, not for me but for her ownself. Christmas is coming!!!!! wOoOOhOooo... LONG BREAK!!! i guess i would just leave thing as it is......

Shag!!!

it being 7 days, ytd was the last day of the wake, people come people go.wat can i say? god bless u great grandma.

the pain seem to be worst, uncle keep reminding me to see a doc, hmmmm i just wanna know wat wrong with it, n hopefully it can be cure, but i doubt so la, it will take a long long long time man.. lolx.. it is irritating.. it come n goes when ever it one.. Z_z

Grandpa is a joker man, out of the sudden he gave me a tap n console me, >.<>

i am confuse how thing work, i dun get the idea of why will it be this way, this time it seem different. Disappointment is thing only word i could discribe.

Fairwell Brunei!!

FINALLY, i am back from brunei trip, no longer gonna be there for anything. hahaha. hmm suppose to be back on the 28th but due to some family matter, i have to flew back earlier to attend the wake. Wat a month, wat a day, wat an hour man. too many thing just happen in 1 go, personal stuff, family, r/s. WHOoooo sux man. Really cannot make up my mind man. Trying to focus on thing tat i wanna do, being thinking alot lately, why must always thing happen den i start to think? would'nt it be too late? lolx..

trying to get used to my new lifestyle man, it just a matter of time to get used to it i guess. kind of confuse with the action that she is doing, is tat wat she really wan? what do i wan? i still cannot get a ans out of it, but i do know i have thing to focus on, still thinking of wat to do. ha. i know it will happen when i go to brunei, cause it 3 week off, anything can happen, kind of prepare for it. So what the nxt plan?

~~Brunei~~

It another flight sydrome again, best of all, this time is 2.. haiz. really dun wish to go man, but look, do i have a choice not to? i dun man. not at all. i just could only bear with it. the pain n suffering we goin thru agaiN? haiz. really hate it man. AR!!!! lolx..

Well nxt of all is between us man, haiz, dunnoe wat went wrong n wats wrong with us. hmmm has being wondering 2 man. goin to just leave thing behind. is not tat good man. tc

nice song

ALL OUT OF LOVE

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone

Thinking of you till it hurts

I know you hurt too but what else can we do

Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile and my heart

For times when my life feels so low

It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring

When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I 'm all out of love, what am I without you

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home

Away from this long lonely nights

I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too

Does the feeling seem oh so right

And what would you say if I called on you now

And said that I can't hold on

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day

Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

Oh, what are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

A story

There was this farmer, planted a seeds 8 months ago, before he planted, he knew he was taking a risk out of it, cause he don't what gonna happen if he fail. He then decided to take the risk, as the result wasn't that good, so he spend 8 month, watering, showering care and talking to this plant. 8 month later, this tiny seed start to grow, the farmer was so happy that he cried, he could not believe what he saw. As times goes by, this tree start to bloom, everything start to fall in place, flowers, fruits and it became so beautiful, it was almost perfect, but..... nothing in the world is perfect. One year has passed, the farmer started to be lazy, he hardy water, show less care to this little tree, he found something more interesting outside then just showing some love to this tree. eventually, the tree start to die off, little did he realise n soon he lost interest out of it. one day, as he was looking back at this tree, he start to think n wonder. what does he really wan? why has this tree become this state?? is he gonna do anything about it? he took so much effort to grow this tree, n it just took him a few week to shake it off from it.

Conclusion? nobody knows~ Don't just becasue of certain n neglect the thing u have build. think n look back at it. if not, it will be too late.. Tc

WASTE MONEY!!!!!

Thanx to my godfather, i just wasted 500 buck on Samsung Omnia, i wanted to buy but think of it is kind of wasting my money, end up, he got it for me, but still i pay him back knowing that his pay is not tat much after all. This month dunnoe wat to do man.

hmmm, wat can i say about us? i have nothing much to say man, thing change so quickly till the extend i also dunnoe wat to do, should i say something? or should i not say? i m not sure too. maybe we should just leave thing as it is, n let fate slowly decided. it is cause of her job tat why she become like tat? her attp? her char? hmmm i have no idea man. it seem like history is repeating? ha. Maybe it is better to not know. Perhaps, just let thing be as it is, let nature take it course. Maybe it time to think for myself n not others anymore.